I was HUNGRY for a NEW kind of NORMAL! I was ready to take CONTROL and become a LOSER (well of weight anyway). I wanted CONTROL back...something that seemed so simple but is so hard to regain at times.
What I realized first, is I needed to be happy and EMBRACE myself. I had to learn to “like” me again, “like me” exactly where I was at. A good friend of mine told me years ago as she was struggling to lose weight, “Michelle, I didn’t gain this extra weight overnight, so I can’t expect to lose it overnight either.” What!!! You can’t lose all of this with a snap of your fingers…but WHY?? I realized that I needed to embrace ME where I was at and LOVE ME no matter what the size my jeans currently said. I then needed to accept the fact that it was going to be a LONG journey, there was going to be tough days and easier days. Baby steps Michelle…that is what it is. You just need to take the first step…that is it.
I know that food is necessary for living but when it is abused, just like drugs or alcohol, it can become a dependency. The hard part about this is if it were a drug or alcohol addiction, I would have to learn how to remove that from my life, completely. Food addiction is so different as you need it to survive…the difference is it needs to be consumed when your body needs it…not when your MIND or your EMOTIONS think you do.
This complete shift in thinking came about the same time when a good friend of mine recommended a book that truly WOKE ME UP and showed me that a NEW NORMAL is possible. “I Can Make You Thin” by Paul McKenna has shed a new light on how I think of food. The word “dieting” doesn’t exist in my vocabulary anymore… "life-style change” has taken its place.
Here were just a few key points that started the journey of my “new normal”:
- “Emotional hunger is sudden and urgent, physical hunger is gradual and patient.”
- “Emotional hunger cannot be satisfied with food; physical hunger can.”
- “There aren’t enough cookies in the world to make you feel loved and whole.” WHAT!!! Could this be true? The answer is…yes.
I am now learning to listen to my body. Pausing before I eat so I can ask myself if I am REALLY hungry or if I am eating for other reasons other than hunger.
This is going to be a long journey. One in which I CHOOSE to CELEBRATE each pound lost. Taking the first step is the key and taking baby steps after that, setting monthly goals of weight loss to reach instead of focusing on that bigger number..so it isn’t too scary and overwhelming.
I recognize that some days, temptation and old habits will win…but the WONDERFUL thing is that tomorrow is a new day and you can start out fresh and NEW again. Refocus and get back on track...that is the key...just get back on track.
This is the first time in my life that I am losing weight in a healthy manner. I am not starving myself, stressing out about points and measuring. I am doing this for me as this is where it needs to begin.
A new kind of NORMAL…nobody said it would be easy…but sometimes it is necessary.